I've always liked April. I think that probably has the most to do with the fact that I like the way the word 'April' looks, along with the fact that regardless of hemisphere it usually means there's going to be rain. Holler at me, fellow rain fanz. Holler at me hard. 

I feel like I got a lot done in March. I didn't do everything on my list of goals - writing, most notably ended up taking a backseat - but I ended up spending a lot more time with my friends than usual and being productive in other ways so I'm aiight with it. That being said, I want to make a conscious effort to focus on writing projects this month because I'm starting to feel out of practice, and I don't see this 'sorting my entire life out' phase wrapping up any time soon so I need to learn to do other things alongside it. Tbh I'm starting to see what everyone always says about it being hard to strike a good balance in life. I've developed a weird sims-inspired method of dealing with this that I'm testing out though, so if that works I shall share it with you in due course.

Generally speaking I think I'm just going to carry over any goals I didn't finish in March. My HazPot reread is going quite well, although it has been slightly derailed by my new Venice book, and I seem to have sorted out my sleep pattern for now which is always a promising sign. I did a fair bit of adventuring in March, but there are still a few specific things I've got in mind for April. I'm really appreciating Melbourne at the moment, and this is probably going to be the last manageable month before things get all windy and cold.

Considering my life has been getting busier over the last month and I don't see it slowing down in April, I want to strike a more manageable balance between quality and quantity over here. Ideally I'll post at least 3 or 4 times a week, but have those posts be of a bit more substance than they may have been otherwise if I felt obligated to write one every day. That being said, I do like the occasional unstructured check in so those will still be happening. Dwoz guys. Keepin' it casual.

Similarly with youtube, I think I'm going to make my Thursday videos optional. I don't know. I'm in a weird place with youtube at the moment where in theory I want to do it but in practice I don't. I'm fine planning the videos but I'm just never in the mood to film, which is the opposite of how it normally is. I think it has a lot to do with me being busy and tired, so I just need to start thinking ahead and taking advantage of the times that I do actually feel like it. If you make videos you'll know that if you're not in the right mood it just isn't going to work, and since youtube isn't my job, when I'm not working at my actual job most of the time I just want to get in my pyjamas and sit very still so this is yet another balance that I need to work out.

2015 is very much turning out to be the year of me getting my shit in order. As much as I have been progressing and making steps in the right directions I am still very prone to retreating and getting a bit stuck and overwhelmed, so I think I'm going to try and take April slow and steady. Bit of a departure from my natural gear of all-or-nothing, but probably for the better. We shall see how it goes.

I've realised there's a big difference between blogs and youtube when it comes to interaction. I read so many blog posts every day but I think I could probably count the number of times I've actually commented on any of them on one hand. Like overall in my entire life. Statistically I can see you guys are reading this, but because there isn't that interaction I don't have the same concept of you as actual people that I do with people who watch my videos, so even if you are like me and never comment on blogs then take a leap of bloody faith and holler at me with some goals you want to make. Whether they're for this month or the year or the process of wooing someone you're currently convinced is your soulmate but that doesn't realise it yet. Comment. Let us create a rapport. Let us soar together.

Unless you are all just my mum, in which case soz about the swearing.